Love at First Sight

I think I've been dreaming for far too long now, it seems I've lost sight of reality, but then again who's to say each person's reality can't be their own. I used to look at love as a lost cause but I'm beginning to realize the human soul is lost without it. I used to hate love but it was out of jealousy and envy. I watch relationships last through the hardest of times and still those two hearts don't show a single sign of tearing away from each other, and I see these people in love and wonder why I, a person so full of inspiration and a person that finds beauty in everything can't find someone to love me with even half the heart I show every person that truly knows me. It makes me angry but even more so it makes me sad on the verge of desperation to the point that I fall in love with any beautiful soul that shows me the slightest bit of attention, and then I wonder if that's my flaw, I show too much love, too much care, and it scares whomever the one receiving it may be.

I remember one particular instance of feeling the "love at first sight" feeling that is so widely dreamt about and is also the basis of many books, movies, and songs, I was standing on Congress bridge in Downtown Austin staring down at the water and all of the canoes that passed by, I began walking towards the city when I noticed this beautiful Dark haired green eyed girl wearing a red and white polka dotted dress walking in my direction I froze trying to think of any excuse I could make to just hear her voice, but nothing, I froze. I couldn't stop thinking about her, I didn't understand why but it felt like I had known her forever and I was in love, as ridiculous as that may seem, I still am. I still daze off from time to time just thinking about her and wondering if it would have made any difference if I had spoken to her. I hate myself for it, for not talking, but I didn't know what to say. I don't know if I'll ever see her again or why I've never been able to get her off my mind, but the love I felt that day is the greatest feeling I have ever known. A rainbow road will lead you home, whenever your lost, wherever you go, a rainbow road will lead you home.